Smile all the way through!

When I was a kid, I used to cry when I didn’t want to go to school or when my teacher scolded me for bringing pickle in tiffin as it was not healthy..when a boy in my class broke my first yellow hair band…Pools of tears ran down my face on small small things…That’s when my mom always used to tell me – “Look at the girl out there, she looks so good when she smiles but will she look good if she doesn’t? So if you want to look good, smile always and do not cry over petty things in life. If you are happy then everything will be automatically good.” Hmm..some convincing argument my mom gave and that smile stuck on my face ever since. 

My teachers thought – “Why does this girl always smile for no reason” and the verdict was announced within 2 min time – “Nimisha..Please stand up! This girl..she is always upto some mischief.” 
..although I never was..It’s just that I had promised myself to maintain the smile even when my thoughts were just the opposite..not so happy..(boring classes) Anyhow my teachers also understood my habit and they got used to my cheery face..

It was also because of this attitude that I now have loads of loving friends.. they used to tell me – “It feels good when we talk to you because be it the worst exam you have had or the worst tensions you have, we have never seen you loose that smile..In fact, you are the rarest of kinds who laughs after knowing that you have screwed you exam badly.” On hearing this..I used to laugh even more showing my irregular teeth as if they were some lucky charm. But yes..it felt good to know that you are there to cheer up people when they need it most…when ..even they are feeling low.. In my hearts I always used to question – “isse bura kya hoga” and yes.. since I was always prepared for the worst “bura hota bhi nahi tha”.

Off late that smile has diminished..and I hate it to the core..
Simple reason – growing up and expecting a lot from life..trying to resist myself from facing the unkown or the worst. Somewhere I have lost that smile and the attitude to fight back the worst by being prepared for it.

Today..I promised myself..
I won’t crib anymore..I won’t let my smile fade with the complexities of life..I will stop expecting from life because everything will happen for best…I will smile all hearts and clear the life’s toughest exam..for sure..

Someone next to God!

It was just some random usual discussion with someone elder to me in every sense...Whatever that person spoke, makes so perfect sense. Here it goes -
"In your age, you will be always confused about what Love is and will attach all sorts of why's, how's to it. As far as I know it, it is something which teaches you to bow or surrender yourself and your ego for that special someone in your life. You will want to agree with someone on even the most insane things possible in this world. And that is when you know you are in Love..That is when you know you have achieved someone next to your parents..someone next to God...because we human beings bow only before them. In short, you will experience another form of worship by bowing to the greatest will of God - which actually is Love in disguise."
Phew! Some real words of enlightenment for my soul or for anybody else who needs it. Really, this knowledge can only come by experience and I'm glad to meet such people who do help me in shaping up what I believe in.

Gana ae ya na ae..Gana chaiye..wo bhi dil se!

I have been listening to some odd varieties of many-a-songs these days, some from good albums, some suggested by friends and some making a direct connection with the heart.
It’s strange how soulful songs have an immediate effect on the ‘chemical locha’ in your brain and can have a solid impact on the feelings of your heart. I was just wondering how..

You just catch a glimpse of someone and you feel that you have known him/her forever. In the background, some beautiful melodious instrumental will start playing and your feelings take a home-run. That’s what I assume to be the perfect definition of love at first sight. When you are in love, even the slightest of romantic music gives you a kick. You hear the name of that person in every beautiful song. You will even end up bothering people around by playing the same songs over and over again but that one person never seems to understand. Really sad!
Some examples I can relate to:
Kaun hai wo ladki..rehti hai wo kaha..
Is deewane ladke ko koi samjae..
Kuch to hua hai..Kuch ho gaya hai..

When breakups happen, you will actually hear a crashing sound. Such cases you will revert to the saddest possible gazals and relate to them for all good reasons. :D
Some hilarious ones:
Deewaro se milkar rona acha lagta hai…hum bhi pagal ho jaenge aisa lagta hai..
Chupke chupke raat din ansu bahana yad hai…

When you are unable to express guilt or ask for forgiveness from someone when he/ she is not ready to listen, you start talking to yourself with the song lyrics as a medium. You will try to bug that person also by cajoling him/her to listen to the song. It's your luck then if the other person really understands what you have been trying to convey so indirectly.
Don’t even remember when these songs were released..:
Humse ka bhool hui jo ye saza humka mili…
Daddi amma daddi amma maan jao…(pretty old ..hmmhh..)

Actually I think there is a better way of using songs in any given situation:
Just sit in front of GOD and play some bhajan or whatever song you will want the others to listen. Maybe God will understand your feelings and do something about or he might enjoy the song as well. (What say bhagwanji?? :) )

Wat are you hiding?!

Sometimes you wish that your deepest secrets be buried real deep, in the depths of your heart..because you know that you can never explain or reason them out to others. You know that it will give you and your loved ones less pain if you just shut yourself up. This is what I call one kind of selfishness where you want to save others from your burden, by hiding things. You just want to see them happy with the smallest of lies.

But then your guilt feeling drives you to tell them the hidden truths which in my opinion is another variety of selfishness. This way you end up relieving yourself but you forget that others will have to bear that burden now.

So, what should you do??
The first option is a safe option where you know that the only person getting hurt is you. Others may get hurt for now but it better to save them from the worst.
The second is an option where everyone is bound to get hurt but with a relief factor, that you are free of all burdens in your heart.

At every point of your life, you will have to choose one of the above even if you are not very sure..Well only time will decide that for you.
For now...I'm just sure of one fact and living it through-
"Some things are best left unsaid.."

Go Fat and round! guyz! ;)

‘Marriage’ - The hot topic of the season, is now on almost all my friend’s or their parent's top priority list, in case they are not hitched yet. Most of us who have no idea of what it will be like or how the spouses will be, go on and on, discussing the dilemmas and the uncertainties revolving around the subject. There are also some who know about it and even have their best match but then, there are other uncertainties surrounding it. Anyways, the point I’m making here is.. It’s not only me who has been so low in spirits about this marriage thing, but there are others too.

Whom should I share my questions with, when I know the other person is also in the same water? I mean nothing bad meant for anybody but just a long wait before I can see their happy duplicate faces around me. Life is hard for everyone at some point or the other. I just can’t stop laughing about it now.

‘Logo ka gum dekha to me apna gum bhool gai!’

p.s. - About the ‘duplicate faces‘ thing – I have heard this from many people that when the boy and the girl marry, they start looking alike after sometime.
The only reason which I could guess to justify this was - Both of them get fat and round since they are happy and …round faces are all the same.. Just kidding guys.. Cheer up!

Flip Sides!

I am staring at the blank space out of the window.. millions of thoughts cloud my mind. The intensity of the piercing wind magnifies their effect on me.

I am intimidated by the fact that there are some people who never seem to understand what you mean, however hard you try to tell them or maybe you even stop telling them when you get tired. Even years or acquaintance with them would never suffice to make them acknowledge the fact that your intentions were always good. So, I have given up trying with such people and left it all to God. If he is doing it then he will make it right too, in his on time and his own way.

Then.. There are some people whom you meet for the first time or even talk just once.. and you feel the instant connection or what I call the miraculous mental match. These are the people who always have faith in you much more than you have in yourself. They will always stand by you no matter what happens. It’s because of these people that all my fears and uncertainties just vanish in thin air. My life seems so much more beautiful since I have known a lot of them…

Two flip sides of the coin called Life!