Thou shall fall.. to rise again Phoenix - wise

7th Grade – Me and my brother got our first red Atlas cycle. We were so excited about our gift that we kept pestering our Dad by asking silly questions-
“How much time will we take to learn cycling?”
“Ok..How much time did you take?”
“Should we drive fast or should we be very slow?”
“How will we balance it without putting our both feet on the ground?”
“This tyre is so slim..What if a dog comes..and what if it’s a buffalo? The cycle will skid.”
“Ok..How will we take a turn while cycling (biggest fear)…Should we also move in synch?” ..and..so..on and on..
Finally after answering a few of the logical ones..and telling us about the functioning of the brakes and the pedals..Dad coolly told us -
“Just sit and I will hold the cycle from back to balance it for you till you learn to balance it yourself. You both are smart enough to learn it real quick. Every successful beginning requires a sacrifice. So, don’t be afraid of falling and shedding a little blood because that is how you will learn by overcoming all your fears. .”

So, I kept my first foot on the paddle..barely managing the second one, holding on to father on one side and mom on the other…and there..I started off with Dad running to match the pace..So much for the exercise for him too.:)

After four or five rounds when I finally managed to balance the cycle, Dad left his hand without letting me know and I drove fast..very fast to keep my balance in place and excitement was on its peak. But on the next turn, I saw a scooter coming and did not act on reflex to pull the brakes. The next reflex…I pushed my legs on the ground..and poof…with mud all around..there I was on the ground..all four corners..my new cycle beside me.

Yes! There were little drops of blood dripping from my knees but I was really happy to see them because I knew that now I would be perfect at cycling. My brother was way ahead of me..getting both his elbows bruised but he learnt much faster than me.

Day1 and we both were bikers. Thanks to Dad for his advice and Mom for her silent support by just watching us for hours.

Here it goes..a learning for lifetime...
Not everything can be learnt theoretically. There will be people to support you and advice you for sometime. Appreciate and learn from what they tell you. But after that, only you will need to deal with circumstances practically and head-on. You might even have to make a lot of sacrifices. You might fall down and get hurt badly in the process but do not let the fear of unknown stop you because it is ok to get hurt for what you want best.
Just be sure to rise again amidst all such failures and fallbacks because only that defines your endurance limit and your inner strength..and you do have a lot of it. It’s just that you need someone to assure you that and then…

You will rise from the Ashes, soar like Phoenix towards the Zenith as your Horizon lies there!

All about feeling 'Special'!

Ya ya..I can see the stretching of your lips into a gentle smile..you are already thinking of people who make you feel that way..make you feel 'Special' by not saying a single word and yet saying it all..in what they do..in how they care..and just by being there. And you can’t seem to thank them less!

So, how do they manage to do it? I mean..sometimes is fine..but always??..
It's not that happens only with you..these people are so miraculous that any person with them will feel special.

Some peculiar traits of such angels in my life and maybe yours too..

They are there to spread happiness around you..by taking care of you in their own small ways..by being selfless yet demanding :)..but still being themselves...

They are never overbearing, yet present when you need them most...Always trying to cheer you up when you are in the worst of your moods.

They know what you have in mind..some kind of telepathy it seems..but will respect your space..Will always be there to give you a patient ear..to sort out your problems..without even letting you know.

They know your faults. Still, they will never criticize you, but will find out a way of telling that to you in an assertive way..in a way that you would want to listen and make efforts to improvise yourself. They will not love you or hate you for your obvious qualities but they will love you for a person you are or you want to be. To say the least, they will be a constant support throughout, totally dependable!

And that's what makes them 'Special' for you too...because it feels good to know that they will stand by you, embrace all your faults…and be there in your struggle with everything else!

Ah..Now I am smiling too.. ;)

Passive Acceptance or Resistance?

Typical human tendency..to hold on to things..to try and control life..to try and change its gears..but with "Destiny" playing its own games..all efforts go for a toss. Then what? Should we fight back..Try and change the course of life..again and again..until all the efforts are in vain??!!

I have seen it and can vouch for it..No person is strong enough to alter what has already been written..however hard we may try! Yet..I have also known a dim light..to enlighten the darker side of life.

It's the path of Passive resistance or rather Passive acceptance. It's this what defines the basic truth of life(for me at least) - "Let things happen for us and we don't try and disturb them...else, in the end, what we will get..is only pain! Everything happens for good. We just have to wait and watch..be a mere spectator..rather..be passive. All will fine, if only we hope for the best and just do our due."

I know many would not agree to this..they may be right too. I'm just trying to suggest something here..which has turned out to be the best for me always.. In case it helps you too..then my job is done.. :)

"You can learn and get the best only when you experience all that is due to you -
Courtesy,
Your Faithful Destiny"

"Okie..My dear Destiny..I get your point..Letz just wait and watch..what more you have to offer!"

I understand you!

A mere blink of eyes..
A constant gaze which ends with a "Hmm"..
A positive nodding of head..
A tap on your head and a brush on your hair too..
A smile that's so true..
All of these say..I understand you..

Even though you may doubt yourself, your decisions and everything else happening in your life..Still there will always be people..some angels who will trust you.. maybe they do not....but will be there to understand you..to support you..alwayz..
Cheerz to all of them..who have stood by me..and continue doing so..just because I know.. how hard it is to deal with a phycho moron like me!

Bhagwan un sab ka bhi bhala zaroor karega..of this I'm pretty sure.. :)

Buggers..****

OK!..I admit...I do loose my temper even after trying my level best...even after applying all my tactics to control it..

You know that the person talking or arguing in front of you is giving you ****shit ..Since you don't want to indulge in any of this or spoil your mood..you stop talking..
Still that person has awesome guts to poke you again and again by telling you that you are wrong and you are damn sure..that the person in front of you is most dumb creature on earth .. is the heights of insanity and obviously has no grounds to prove his/her point...
This person will never admit his/her fault and instead will find something or the other to blame it on..I mean how does such a person manage to hide his/her brilliant level of surprisingly low intelligence quotient...You can always guess it when he/she opens his/her mouth.

Another one of its kind - These people have no knowledge of what your doing and what is expected.. you are giving your best..Still! They will sit on your head and tell you that you are not doing it right..even when you have been an expert at it..When you ask them if they have ever done it before or are they even aware what it is...the answer is "NO"(Bloddy ********) To hell with such bossy people..How can they pass judgments when they don't even know what it is about..??
I am really fed up of such seemingly rare variety of people, whom I have met at some point or the other...and my anger has soared to the peaks..(to mention the least!)

A humble request to all such people - Plz Plz..Plz...
Not accepting your faults will never help you out..It's simply your escapist tendency..Cut it out..Accept that you have loopholes too... There are people who will always love you if you just can admit the wrongs done and not blame others for it..or rather stop giving lame excuses for it.
For the other kind - Get a life...or else there will always be some people who will surely get the superiority complex out of your brains..Then only you will be appreciate others for what they are doing and not taking credit by just bossing around and doing nothing..

Jai Hind! :P

Smile all the way through!

When I was a kid, I used to cry when I didn’t want to go to school or when my teacher scolded me for bringing pickle in tiffin as it was not healthy..when a boy in my class broke my first yellow hair band…Pools of tears ran down my face on small small things…That’s when my mom always used to tell me – “Look at the girl out there, she looks so good when she smiles but will she look good if she doesn’t? So if you want to look good, smile always and do not cry over petty things in life. If you are happy then everything will be automatically good.” Hmm..some convincing argument my mom gave and that smile stuck on my face ever since. 

My teachers thought – “Why does this girl always smile for no reason” and the verdict was announced within 2 min time – “Nimisha..Please stand up! This girl..she is always upto some mischief.” 
..although I never was..It’s just that I had promised myself to maintain the smile even when my thoughts were just the opposite..not so happy..(boring classes) Anyhow my teachers also understood my habit and they got used to my cheery face..

It was also because of this attitude that I now have loads of loving friends.. they used to tell me – “It feels good when we talk to you because be it the worst exam you have had or the worst tensions you have, we have never seen you loose that smile..In fact, you are the rarest of kinds who laughs after knowing that you have screwed you exam badly.” On hearing this..I used to laugh even more showing my irregular teeth as if they were some lucky charm. But yes..it felt good to know that you are there to cheer up people when they need it most…when ..even they are feeling low.. In my hearts I always used to question – “isse bura kya hoga” and yes.. since I was always prepared for the worst “bura hota bhi nahi tha”.

Off late that smile has diminished..and I hate it to the core..
Simple reason – growing up and expecting a lot from life..trying to resist myself from facing the unkown or the worst. Somewhere I have lost that smile and the attitude to fight back the worst by being prepared for it.

Today..I promised myself..
I won’t crib anymore..I won’t let my smile fade with the complexities of life..I will stop expecting from life because everything will happen for best…I will smile all hearts and clear the life’s toughest exam..for sure..

Someone next to God!

It was just some random usual discussion with someone elder to me in every sense...Whatever that person spoke, makes so perfect sense. Here it goes -
"In your age, you will be always confused about what Love is and will attach all sorts of why's, how's to it. As far as I know it, it is something which teaches you to bow or surrender yourself and your ego for that special someone in your life. You will want to agree with someone on even the most insane things possible in this world. And that is when you know you are in Love..That is when you know you have achieved someone next to your parents..someone next to God...because we human beings bow only before them. In short, you will experience another form of worship by bowing to the greatest will of God - which actually is Love in disguise."
Phew! Some real words of enlightenment for my soul or for anybody else who needs it. Really, this knowledge can only come by experience and I'm glad to meet such people who do help me in shaping up what I believe in.